For Nothing

Have always impressed upon myself
that the world is fraught with unrest
an order it never keeps for itself
a place to the hell nearest

All the ones that did pass me
weren't the simplest of things
but the ones that I kept near me
were the most special of all beings

Dreaming that they would be as good
was fine to let memory calm
for I knew they weren't as good
and forever I wasn't to remain calm

Hope I did let go on one
Was not granted by another
Shame on you child of earth
none cries for your bother

Grey is the curtain in my heart
roll them back you would see
the tears falling without start
it is as worse as it ever could be.